"It feels like I'm going to jump right out of my skin," Sonja said through clenched teeth.
"Mmm..." The counselor made a note. "And then what?"
She perched on the edge of the sofa, "And then my skeleton's going to punch you in the smarmy face."
"Mmm..." Another note. "Would that make you feel better?"
"I hate that you never look up at me."
"Mmm..." A glance over her glasses and back to the notebook. "You don't think I look up at you enough?"
"At all, you..." Sonja cut herself off. The frustration was rising, and it felt like the counselor was baiting her.
Showing posts with label PMS. Show all posts
Showing posts with label PMS. Show all posts
Monday, August 18, 2014
Sunday, June 2, 2013
167
Many people, not just men, mind you, believe that PMS simply makes a woman bloated, bitchy and desirous of chocolate. That is only partially true. The symptoms suffered by premenstrual women, or by women suffering from any hormonal fluctuations, are often more subtle and much more psychologically harmful than indulging in extra chocolate. The following example may help to demonstrate the transformation due to PMS.
Dreams become weird. They are colorful and frightening. Demons lurk in basements and the feeling of loss and personal error leading to loss lingers upon awakening. Helping to magnify the dream state is poor sleep. A sufferer finds herself weary during the day, but unable to fall asleep. She may also wake frequently and have difficulty falling back to sleep. Dreams haunt until morning.
The sufferer will find herself marked by zits and bruises. Often, it is a sudden zit that will first alert her that something is awry. The bruises come from carelessness with one's body. The corner of a bookshelf will be closer than is realized, bruising an elbow. She will take a corner too closely and bruise a hip. She will crack a shin, a knee, her head. She will close her finger in a drawer. However it happens, there will be bruises.
These are, perhaps, first noticeable symptoms, and they may be understood by the woman and then used to acknowledge that the more harmful symptoms she has already been experiencing (unnoticed and unacknowledged) are due to hormones and not due to any suddenly revealed Truth about the world. It will seem that Truths (with a capital T) have been revealed. Motives behind others' actions will suddenly be realized. Tone of voice will indicate volumes of hidden feelings. Words unsaid will speak to the heart and be understood when once there was just a nice, quiet moment. The world will show itself as it truly is. HOWEVER: this is a lie. It is a lie told by hormones that seems just like a revelation. You must look back to the pimples, the bruises, the dreams, to remind yourself that these heart-wrenching revelations are untrue.
Dreams become weird. They are colorful and frightening. Demons lurk in basements and the feeling of loss and personal error leading to loss lingers upon awakening. Helping to magnify the dream state is poor sleep. A sufferer finds herself weary during the day, but unable to fall asleep. She may also wake frequently and have difficulty falling back to sleep. Dreams haunt until morning.
The sufferer will find herself marked by zits and bruises. Often, it is a sudden zit that will first alert her that something is awry. The bruises come from carelessness with one's body. The corner of a bookshelf will be closer than is realized, bruising an elbow. She will take a corner too closely and bruise a hip. She will crack a shin, a knee, her head. She will close her finger in a drawer. However it happens, there will be bruises.
These are, perhaps, first noticeable symptoms, and they may be understood by the woman and then used to acknowledge that the more harmful symptoms she has already been experiencing (unnoticed and unacknowledged) are due to hormones and not due to any suddenly revealed Truth about the world. It will seem that Truths (with a capital T) have been revealed. Motives behind others' actions will suddenly be realized. Tone of voice will indicate volumes of hidden feelings. Words unsaid will speak to the heart and be understood when once there was just a nice, quiet moment. The world will show itself as it truly is. HOWEVER: this is a lie. It is a lie told by hormones that seems just like a revelation. You must look back to the pimples, the bruises, the dreams, to remind yourself that these heart-wrenching revelations are untrue.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)