When is it too late to still be great? Child genius means younger than twelve, thirteen at the most. Music stars shine in their teens. Olympic athletes peak in their twenties. Models are done by thirty. "40 Under 40" lists are self-explanatory. Stories about people getting rich and retiring young are featuring younger and younger retirees. Eventually you can become great again, but you have to be pretty old. The eighty-something who finally got their college degree. The ninety-year-old who kicks butt as an online gamer. The 104-year-old power lifter. What about 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s? Can I still be great? Do I still have time?
Every day I will write the very beginning of a story, a paragraph or a whole page, without worrying about where it might lead. "Nulla dies sine linea," I hope!
Thursday, August 12, 2021
Great.
Friday, August 6, 2021
She's Better Off
In the time it took for Miranda to go grocery shopping and come back, her husband had packed and left. She noted without conscious acknowledgement that his truck was gone though the idea that he had left on a fire call skimmed across her brain. Miranda brought in the groceries in two trips. She unloaded food and goods purchased with her husband in mind. While unloading the second set of bags, her subconscious mind mentioned she couldn't hear his fire and police scanner, which was always on. It wasn't until she saw the dust-free rectangle on the side table in the living room that she allowed herself to realize he was gone. Feet feeling heavier with every step, she trudged upstairs and made herself look at his closet and ill-closed dresser. She made herself look in the bathroom and saw her own toothbrush missing. Miranda found it later in the toilet.
Thursday, August 5, 2021
"I Lived through a Stupid Coup"
At the start of the fall of their government, no one believed it was the start of anything. It was stupid. It was dumb people with big mouths being loud. A curse of the intelligent is to believe that nobody could be that stupid. By the time the election rolled around again, it seemed that no one could ignore the depths of stupidity to which so many would sink.
A tank rolled by Hannah's house, tearing up the already ruined street. She was briefly outraged, then remembered the remaining gas in their SUV had dried out.
Sunday, August 1, 2021
Douglas G.
Douglas died in 1995. Twenty-six years later, a former elementary school classmate tried searching his name again on the internet. If you had told Douglas at any point while he was alive that someone in the future would be using a computer to search worldwide records for his name and picture, he may not have believed you. He would have been fairly certain, however, that his obituary would be written by then. By then, he was dead for three years longer than he had been alive.
Jessica thought it likely that he wouldn't have even remembered her. After all, the last time they had seen each other was 5th grade.
Thursday, July 22, 2021
The Extinction of Man
To Seth, it was an inexplicable feeling. So alien that he couldn't even express that it was a feeling. He thought perhaps it was his dinner, unsettled. Seth's mind only brushed across the idea that the feeling had been there for much longer than this particular evening. Perhaps it had burned since he was in his early twenties, when he peaked, but didn't know it. He bought antacids and ate them. He drank antacid liquid. He swallowed antacid pills. The feeling not only lingered, but grew stronger. No general physician could have helped Seth. While a psychologist may have been able, they, too, would not have been able to help in this case because Seth would and, indeed, never could articulate the source of this feeling.
If Seth had the emotional intelligence, the desire for inward analysis, or even the language, he might have said this: I am afraid of becoming extinct.
Wednesday, July 21, 2021
Lost: Telling vs. Showing
He was lost in the music.
Head bowed and swinging side to side, the drumsticks were extensions of his arms, beating out a rhythm that drove the undulations of the crowd.
She felt lost.
Even though she sat still past the point of being uncomfortable, her mind ran into wall after wall, thoughts bouncing off and stumbling into the next barrier until, in a blind panic, they screamed inside her head.
All seemed lost.
Huddled as they were in the building's basement storage, the sounds from the streets was finally too distant to hear. One of the women, the only one still clutching a child who seemed to be younger than ten, started to cry. Nobody hushed her.
Friday, July 16, 2021
Pop, Pop, Pop
Many times Maggie thought she heard gunshots when they were only fireworks, lit in the streets, far too long before and after the Fourth of July. Did anyone lighting those dumb things even feel remotely patriotic, she wondered, or just playing at war or arson. Real gunshots didn't go on for as long. Real gunshots didn't seem to echo as much. Pop, pop, pop. Triplets. One, two, three. One broke the glass. Two cracked a mirror. Three killed a baby.