Saturday, June 20, 2009

32

Sadness doesn't just suddenly appear, like when you realize you have ants. You walk into the kitchen one morning and there's an ant crawling across the counter and you have to buy those little plastic poison roundhouses to put into corners and under the refrigerator. Sadness creeps up on you, and you do notice, but you ignore it, like when you get cancer.

You notice the spot on your arm, or the pain in your side, but it's nothing. Sure, it bothers you a little, but you manage to convince yourself there's no need to trouble anyone with it. Then the spot gets bigger, or the pain suddenly sharpens, so now you wear long sleeves or take an ibuprofen and you can keep on just as you have been.

But the cancer is still there, and it won't go away just because you ignore it. As a matter of fact, it will only get worse. If you hadn't ignored it, you might have gotten help. Yeah, it would have been painful, but not as painful as a slow death.

Sadness is a slow death that eats you from the inside out.

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