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There were some nights that Cara really, really wished she could go to bed without him.  Not for any of the mundane reasons couples usually have, but only because she used to use that time to talk to herself.  Out loud.  Or, at least, in a low mutter.  She wasn't sure how it sounded to anyone else because she only did it for herself, but she was starting to feel that these years of not being able to talk to herself before going to sleep was hurting her.  Cara's talks helped her straighten out the tangles of the day and helped her understand complications in her path.  She not only talked to herself, but she also talked to people she had met, or whom she had known, or who were dead.  These conversations sometimes ran in circles, or got into arguments, or even led to tears, but, she realized, they had been extremely important to her psyche because recently the voices were coming anyway, and they weren't hers.